Doorways and Stairways - the things - objects for new beginnings and enlightenments.

Gazing through this portal - I often wonder what is down there - Does my life ebb and flow like this doorway.

The mystery of life and I want to cross the theshold and go on

A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
 
enough money within her control to move out
and rent a place of her own,
 even if she never wants to or needs to...
 
 
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
 
something perfect to wear if the employer,
 or date of her dreams wants to see her in an hour...
 
 
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ..
 
a youth she's content to leave behind....
 
 
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
 
a past juicy enough that she's looking forward to
retelling it in her old age....
 
 
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE .....
 
a set of screwdrivers, a cordless drill, and a black lace bra...
 
 
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
 
one friend who always makes her laugh... and one who lets her cry...
 
 
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ....
 
a good piece of furniture not previously owned by anyone else in her family...
 
 
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
 
eight matching plates, wine glasses with stems,
and a recipe for a meal,
 that will make her guests feel honored...
 
 
 
A WOMAN SHOULD HAVE ...
 
a feeling of control over her destiny...
 
 
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
 
how to fall in love without losing herself..
 
 
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
 
how to quit a job,
break up with a lover,
and confront a friend without;
ruining the friendship...
 
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
 
when to try harder... and WHEN TO WALK AWAY...
 
 
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
 
that she can't change the length of her calves,
the width of her hips, or the nature of her parents..
 
 
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
 
that her childhood may not have been perfect..but it's over...
 
 
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
 
what she would and wouldn't do for love or more...
 
 
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
how to live alone... even if she doesn't like it...
 
 
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW..
 
whom she can trust,
whom she can't,
and why she shouldn't take it personally...
 
 
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
 
where to go...
be it to her best friend's kitchen table...
or a charming inn in the woods...
when her soul needs soothing...
 
 
 
EVERY WOMAN SHOULD KNOW...
 
what she can and can't accomplish in a day...
a month...and a year... 
  
  
 

 Taking the time to follow a lost childhood dream.

My birthday is coming up. I will have made it 42 years in this body ( I am thankful for my bloodline and genetic sequencing - meaning I still get carded). I have seen many things and walked into many realities.

Some of the lessons where the same just the school and the students changed - but the classes were still the same.

History - doomed to be repeated, Math - add and subtract you friends, Gym - hit hard/run fast, English- a waste of time and never used.

Then I finally got the gist of the game and saw some tweaks and do-overs.

So, my do over for my 42 is to follow the paths I would have when I was a child - but due to family financial difficulies I was unable to pursue.

(funny as a child - I wanted to be that kid that got carted off to piano, violin or singing lessons. Yes, I wanted to be a musical nerd).

Anyway, I bought myself a violin and she's beautiful. She looks like the one from the movie 'The Red Violin' - there's my baby isn't she a beauty.

But since I live so far away from lessons- this is where the challenge comes in. I will be teaching myself- thank goodness for the internet and all of those online classes.

Yes, in life we are given lemons for lemon-aid and sometimes in life we are given do overs and now that I am old enough to follow a passion and to have the responsibility to practice. This will definately be a wonderful 42.

As I sit here and dwell on the life that has passed from me - over the years of un-conscious living.

And then waking up to change the wheels that have rolled over me - as if they where trying to awaken me from my un-conscious life.

Dwelling upon this space in time - I really feel as if I have not accomplished much of anything - especially when it comes to this world of the living humans.

If I haven't accomplished anything before the age of 30 then I am pointless and after 50 it will be 'amazing for her age'.

At 42 (soon to be next month) - I ponder what have I done besides seek adventures. When I attended the school of healing arts and being told this - that and other.

To live up to my passion and potiential. Have a mantra and a goal.

I have come to know that I have set the 'bars of goal (pun)',  so high that I have absolutly no idea as to how to attract my dreams - wishes- desires to me.

For I went back to school - just to get a better insight to 'being a witch' understanding the 'magick of energy of life and found many answers as well as how to define and refine what I am passionate for and whom I wish to share my passions with.

But, how?

The who doesn't know I exist.

Why?

We are from two totally different worlds - I suppose I take, opposites attract abit real far.

And I have no idea as to the how's of attraction.

I have done just about every spell to no avail and just decided to educate myself and know about me - found out loads - but not to the burning questions that are important to me.

I have tried and done many things from business proposals to mailers - I have even attemted to move to where I need to be - and wound up living at home with momma?

What to do???

Yep, I am old and I kind of reminence about the 'old days'.

Like pen pals and all the friends I made writing to people in other countries and other parts of the states.

Finding out what people are doing and living daily. I found it to be cool, but it is a practice I have fallen out of - thanks to the great invention of instant - e-mail. Which I love.

But, I swear I hate getting bills in the mail and never any nice letters to open. That special something to put into a scrapbook - tie with ribbon and put into special boxes marked - pen pals and old/new friends.

Since, I will be traveling (soon, I hope) it would be nice to send letters to friends, get the lowdown on area and make friends that I could not have made otherwise.

So onward and old fashioned I go.